Dawn at Red Island

It has always been my bad habit to focus on the things which are wrong in my life. Ever since, I've always talked about my failures and deficiencies, lost relationships, things I cannot have... I was blinded by these faults in my personality and in my surroundings. Time and again, I've continually picked at the holes in my life's tapestry, letting myself be carried away by my own self-pity and my overly-analytical mind coupled with my overly-emotional heart.

That phase in my life, I believe, has come to an end.

From now on, I will focus on the things which I have, which after some reflection, are not bad at all.

First, I have a good job. I am an instructor at the premiere university in the country, of a subject that the university excels in. Chancellor Cao was right, I am a part of the best of the best. Few can become UP students but fewer are qualified to be UP instructors. I am proud of my job.

Second, I am working in an intellectual community. I am taking my MS degree and that keeps my brain sharp. I enjoy what I'm learning. I like it how biochemistry can make impossibilities (like me having superpowers) closer to reality. And grade-wise, I think I still am closer to the top than to the bottom.

Third, I am rather famous. With every sem that passes, more UP students get to hear of my name. Being famous has always been one of my life's dearest ambitions and I never thought teaching will give me that!

Fourth, I love my students and I suppose most of them love me back. I love teaching them about chemistry, life, and love. I get to know really good friends and the love I get in return is priceless. I virtually have a real army of friends (hundreds of them) behind me!

Fifth, I am living comfortably. I'm staying in a new and nice dormitory. I can afford to splurge a little on things that I like. True, I still cannot buy everything that I want but at this point, I am getting enough and I am contented with the possessions that I have.

Sixth, I am remembered. My relatives notice when I'm not present family gatherings. My relatives ask how I am doing. My students and friends remember me by texting me quotes, posting comments, sending messages, inviting me to events occasionally. My company is wanted. And my monthly friendster viewings (so far) have not fallen below the hundred level.

Seventh, I am living the life that I want. I am free to do what I want to do. I am free to express myself and to be who I really am. I do not feel threatened to stop being me and people like me just the way I am.

And lastly,
the reason why I'm feeling so good right now
that no matter what kind of problems you throw at me, I know that somehow I'm going to be okay because I have the greatest treasure life has to offer


I've got true love
I have my baby


And that is a reason to celebrate

:)