Green Sunsets & Null Sets

Have you ever tried to look at yourself in the mirror, not to look at your appearance, but to look into your eyes hoping to find a glimmer of who you really are?

 

Have you ever tried to crane your neck upward and just look at the wide expanse of the cloudless sky and simply wonder at how it makes you want to fly?

 

Have you ever tried to imagine yourself a giant stepping over lands and seas, pausing every now and then to tickle your feet with the trees?

 

Have you ever tried bungee jumping inside your head, to feel the rush of the wind against your face and to try to intermittently fight the feeling of falling to get that conscious thrill in your tummy?

 

Have you ever tried to get your mind lost as you gaze outward from the bus window, and making yourself believe that you can forget where you are if you only tried hard enough although you really couldn't?

 

Have you ever tried thinking that handsome stranger was your boyfriend, only to lose interest halfway through because you imagined being with him so hard, it almost felt as if you've really had him?

 

Have you ever tried to control your hands as they move seemingly without permission as they followed the beats of the song you were listening to, making you look like an epileptic fool in front of everyone?

 

Have you ever tried to appreciate the awesomeness of your own brain as you wake up from yet another dream whose ideas you wouldn't have been able to come up with by yourself awake?

 

Have you ever tried to scare yourself silly knowing that if you are aware of this much now, it will only get worse in the future and you might get swept away by the sheer wonder of your ever evolving thoughts?

 

Have you ever tried being attracted to the night and its shadows while in your head, you rely on real textures to feel your heart for its sore spots and grooves?

 

Have you ever tried to sit on a cafe with your smokes and your music and just stare blankly in front of you because your mind is bombarded with external and internal barrages of thoughts and yet it feels blank at the same time?

 

Have you ever tried to bring yourself back to the ground and to erase that stupid smile in your face as you came up with another exciting and crazy idea on what the future might be like?

Have you ever tried to ask yourself why you are so mesmerized by fireworks when you can easily see something more visually stunning on your media player's visualizations?

 

Have you ever tried asking yourself why you feel that sunsets, especially those rare vivid green ones, are among the most beautiful things you have ever seen on this earth even though you already know that the answer to that is meaningful but still, it does not matter?