Stay

It was a Valentine's Day, so many years ago, and we've just been to the UP Fair but I still didn't want to leave even though the vicinity was much too crowded already. We were sitting in front of the AS Steps, watching the fireworks display, and when it was over, I... I still did not want to go.

We went to Philcoa next and stood in front of McDonald's. You wanted to go home, but I didn't want you to. It was Valentine's Day, I said, and we should spend the night together. But where, you asked. Everywhere would be full, you said, let us just go home. But I was adamant and I still did not want you to go.

So we went to this motel, and as expected it was full. There were almost no seats left in the lobby, and when I asked the receptionist, she said it might take three hours or more before we can get a room. And so we stayed there, in the lobby. I was watching MTV and you were sleeping. Sometimes you lean your head on my shoulder, and I... I stole a glance at those around us because we've never been really public about such things. But then it was Valentine's. So I didn't care.

Finally, our number was called, and we both had to rouse ourselves. We went up to our room, and then down on the bed. But how we made love, I can't remember anymore. I've lost count of the many ways I've had you in my arms.

And yes, it was a Valentine's Day, and it has been so many years ago. But how we spent ours, I still can remember. Of all the guys and the girls. Of all the lovers and the strangers. How we spent ours was what comes to mind when I look back. And I don't know, Baby. I really don't know why. Of all the lovers and the strangers, it is still you that I want. After all these years, Baby, it is still you that I want.

Maybe someday, Baby, I will find someone to heal me. Maybe someday, that someone will come around and erase you from my memory. But until then, I am sure, that when this day comes around again, it will still be you I will be thinking of. It will be you. It will still be you.