Six Feet Under

Why "Six Feet Under"? It is a Marion Raven song that I like right now. I know, some of you might be sniggering because I like her. Well, I admit, her music is not Class A, but I think her album is still a good pop album. Pop, although it is trying to sound like rock..

What's so special about that? Well it is because I dedicate it to this fucking <toot!> who stole my wits! Shit, why I am I like this? Can't I even write something unrelated to that fucking <toot!>?

Six feet under, under my skin/ there's a battle I know I cant win/ you invade me, and I surrender/ yeah, that's what I hate about you/

Six feet under, under my skin/ that is where your story begins/ you were wanting/ i was forsaken/ yeah hey hey hey/

You came to me with words unspoken/ i cant deny it, that i knew my glass would end up broken/ (thats how you got me)/ i blame myself for being stupid, but i cant help it/ yet im eating right out of your hand/ thats what i hate about you!/

Fucking hell, what is happening to me? Joy told me to move on.. But I cant. Well, no, actually I can. Im just having difficulty accepting the fact that I cant have <toot!> and that I am not happy with all that has happened. Haha. What should I have expected? That <toot!> is like me? And that <toot!> feels the same?

No no. <Toot!> doesnt like me one whit. And <toot!> was disappointed we ended up like this. Shitshitshit.. Loads of shit. What have I done?! I destroyed what we have. Truckloads of shit.. What I would give just to have it all back.. Just so we could be friends again.. Shit <toot!>, I miss you a lot! I miss talking to you <toot!>! Please talk to me again. Forget all that has happened, forget the mess that I made. Please I want it all back. Do not worry, what you said wont happen, wont happen. I will not be forcing you into something you are incapable of. I can still be who you thought I was.

Ive already lost my high school best friend like this. I fell in love with her, and she didnt talk to me for YEARS! I dont want THAT to happen AGAIN! No matter how insignificant this might seem compared to that. <Toot!>, I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE A PERSON I CARE ABOUT JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN NOT RECIPROCATE THE LOVE I AM WILLING TO GIVE!

Whew, why did it turn out to be like this? I did not originally mean this to be a letter to <toot!>. Fuck me.. The love-crazy dumb fool.. Endured so much already yet stricken stupid by <toot!> with <toot!> unaware of what was happening. <Toot!>'s innocence and trust turned awry by what I did.

Ahh here's the bridge line of "Six Feet Under"..

Its not that hard to walk away/ there's gotta be a different meaning.../

There's gotta be a different meaning..