Alpha

Do you know...

How hard it is for me to see you twice a week without fail?

Do you know...

How hard it is to be constantly reminded of the person who has hurt me the most?

Do you know...

How difficult it is for me to forget my ruined past because of your innocent presence?

So much so that...

Sometimes...

I almost wish you gone...

Although I know it is unfair for you because you definitely have nothing to do with any of this...

And you can't do anything to help me...

Because you can't help but be yourself...

Because you can't help but be a reincarnation of the person who has left me...

The person who left me just because I made the grievous mistake of falling in love...

The person who ignored me even though I pleaded for forgiveness...

Forgiveness and understanding I've asked time and again and yet always getting the same reply...

Which was...

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Silence...

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But do you know...

That I've learned my lesson...

Because of him, I've lost her...

Because of him, I've realized that I'm just a common fool when it comes to love...

And there's no way I'll let that happen again...

No way...

Because I've finally learned how to love someone...

I've learned how it is to be committed...

And you can't just destroy what I've built...

What the two of us have built...

Because you are nothing but his ghost who is present only in my imagination...

And I alone have the power to kill his memory...

And kill it I will...

Because there's no other way for me to do that because of what he has made me suffer...

But I'm asking you one thing...

Don't make it any harder for me...

It's not you I'm being uncomfortable for...

And it isn't even him...

It's myself...

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And you also know what, alpha?

I'm gonna win this time...

I'm going to come out in my best...

And I'm confident about that...

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You want to know why?

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Because I love my baby.