April 27, 2008
Yah. Break na kami ng baby ko. He let me go. Kasi hindi ko na daw siya mahal kagaya nang dati. That I cannot deny. I need to find my way back to him, which I think is for the best.
Freedom?
The appalling thing is I haven't shed a single tear for him. I cry, true, but not for him. I guess I really have to find my old love for him again.
So why am I not crying? Because somebody else is making me happy. So, I know I shouldn't be like this but, I am rather happy too.
I feel guilty for hurting my baby so much. We talked yesterday and he was really devastated. I have to let him go through this. The reason why he is weak is because he lacks experience in these things. So I let him. Maybe when the time comes when we're both ready to start again, I will find in him the strength I need in a relationship.
In the meantime, I'm all set to chase after my dream.
I am going to Rainbow's End. It doesn't exist but I'm going anyway.
It rather feels good, doing what I want to do.
Freedom?
The appalling thing is I haven't shed a single tear for him. I cry, true, but not for him. I guess I really have to find my old love for him again.
So why am I not crying? Because somebody else is making me happy. So, I know I shouldn't be like this but, I am rather happy too.
I feel guilty for hurting my baby so much. We talked yesterday and he was really devastated. I have to let him go through this. The reason why he is weak is because he lacks experience in these things. So I let him. Maybe when the time comes when we're both ready to start again, I will find in him the strength I need in a relationship.
In the meantime, I'm all set to chase after my dream.
I am going to Rainbow's End. It doesn't exist but I'm going anyway.
It rather feels good, doing what I want to do.
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